That day,

your birthday and the few hours

before felt like my birthday

our favorite day.

When you ate all 15

cookies I made

drank sparkling wine

and carried me

to bed.

Smoked your “last” cigarette

at midnight held me in your arms

until we both fell


Woke up in my bed

so small, hands numb

from sleeping on them.

Drove to lunch the next day,

hand on your thigh

and parking lot pleasure.

Nine course dinner, gazing in your eyes

Manual drive slash stimulation.

One more time before you leave

“Here’s your final present, baby.”


I wanted to spend my birthday with you

playing love songs on the piano

you bought me too early

walking through rose bushes

in the park

we fought in in November.


you, my favorite

present, until we both fell asleep.

And we’d laugh in the morning

how it felt like your birthday

because you had so much fun.

We’d stay there all day

wrapped in my sheets

hands numb from sleeping

on them

lost all day

in my bed

so small

I had to sleep half on top of you.


But my birthday wish

was to sleep inside

of you.

Shrink myself to a cell and live

in your heart


you bought that piano

too soon.

We didn’t get to see the roses.

And I spent my birthday


wrapped in my sheets


hands numb from sleeping on them,

occupying half the bed to save

room for your ghost.


What (We) Wore – Tokyo

If you follow my Japan-related blog amakara, you know that I spent a week in Tokyo recently. Though I live in the country-side where there are few people to impress, I’m constantly thinking about my personal style, but going to the big city makes it feel a little more important. I’ve always felt as though style is the first and most obvious way to let others know what kind of person you are. It’s wearable art. So, needless to say, what I (and my friend) wore in Tokyo was a big deal to us. That being said, Japan is so super hot and humid in the summer, and we had to do a lot of walking in the city. So enjoy our comfortable summer looks!





Omotesando streets

American Apparel and ModCloth
Omotesando alleys of Omotesando

 (Shibushi temple hopping)


T by Alexander Wang and H&M


The vacationer

Asos and Zara
at Sensoji


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As you can see, we did keep it mostly simple. If you’re visiting Tokyo (or other parts of Japan) in the summer, I highly recommend light, breathable materials and flat shoes! You can check out more looks on my instagram. See you soon! XO

Night at the Aquarium

Tokyo, naturally, is full of exciting things to do. I’m a little bit glad I don’t live there, though, because I’d never have any money. There’s just so much going on.

One night during the week, my friend and I decided to go to the Art Aquarium set up in the Nihonbashi Mitsui Hall. We bought our tickets before at 7-11 and got a drink discount. The day event does not serve alcohol as far as I know, but in the evening, it turns into a “Night Aquarium” complete with adult beverages. On the weekends they also have live music!

I told a lot of people I was excited about the Art Aquarium, and they laughed at me. Maybe they just didn’t understand what it means. The exhibit, called Edo Eco, takes Edo era lantern shapes and designs to create artistic fish bowls. Then the bowls are filled with interesting goldfish and lit with colorful lights. Everything was so well thought out and very modern. Each of the aquariums had their own unique features; some distorted the fishes bodies, and others were simple, allowing the fish to shine. It was, for lack of better adjectives, so cool.




The Art and Night Aquariums run until September 23rd and the entrance fee is 1000 yen. Be sure to check out their website for more information!

Down to (Little) Texas

This summer, my best friend was kind enough to come to Japan and keep me company for 10 days. It was a much needed vacation and escape from Osumi, and we had so much fun.

We headed to Tokyo from Kagoshima on Friday, and that night we decided to check out Meguro’s Little Texas on a recommendation from some friends. I had heard it was a nice little place to grab some imported beer and chicken-fried steak and listen to country music, but I had no idea how much it would really look like a small-town Texas honky tonk. For those of you non-Texans out there, a honky tonk is a bar where one can two-step to local country music and do some beer-in-hand boot scootin’. That description didn’t help at all did it? No, why don’t I show you…Little Texas is surprisingly accurate, if not  little over the top.



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Barbed wire, road signs, and empty chewing tobacco cans? Check, check, and CHECK!


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The night we went was Bluegrass Night, and we were very lucky to hear the beautiful sounds of the talented musicians playing there. It was magical. We also had some nachos complete with jalepenos and a few frozen margaritas to wash it down. We later chatted a bit with the owner and he gave us onion rings free of charge. I definitely know where I’m going when I get homesick from now on!


If you’re ever in Tokyo and have a free night, check out Little Texas. Even if you aren’t from Texas. There is a music fee (I think it was about 2000 yen when we went), but the food and drinks are pretty standard. And the music is worth it.


To get to Little Texas and check it out for yourself, check out their webpage! The bar is about a five minute walk from Meguro Station.